Joi-fish was crying cos she didnt want to leave us, which was he first time ive seen her be upset about it. She used to count the days until she could leave our school. I guess it never really clicked that leaving our school meant leaving us as well.
No hangovers and i think i remember everything so all is cool.
But then all is not cool. The whole unsmileyness refuses to go away. I hate everyone. I feel like I need to push everyone away and hang in there on my own for a while. I don't want to love anyone anymore. But i say this and i know i cant do it. It would be a selfish and pointless exercise achiveing nothing but everyone being miserable. But I need to do...something. I need to find a way of dealing with everything. Sometimes i feel violent and agressive, sometimes emotional and upset, or pissed off and frustrated. Or all of the above at the same time. Oh that sounds like fun...
Everything goes all blurry if you just stare into space. | My exciting weekend...!
